#30 Thirty

I often misspeak

And say I am thirty

When I am that plus one

It's not fun

Being older than you feel.

For so long I felt 25.

Even as a 12-year-old

I longed not just for college

But the years beyond.

Adulthood and apartments and being comfortable in heels.

Some of those things happened, others didn't.

But also I did get older

And now my years have passed my soul a bit

And it is strange.

And will only get worse with time.